Masih ada Harapan

Hello hello

Baru balik bbq dinner band tadi. He has invited me to join as well. I am just okay since aku pun kenal ok je ngan bebudak lain. At least I have this small family dlm cultural yang masih perangai gila gila layan aku alumni tua.

Malam ni short ja nak cerita, since tidoq sepanjang hari ni and just berbbq dinner sampai plan nak pi Matta Fair pun cancel -_-"

This is last semester for him and I am fell and act like 80% obligated to help him in terms of monitoring his music activities as well as the studies. Even though ada decision aku terpaksa buat antara Cikgu, family dia, lecturer and aku. Kalau ikutkan memang almost everytime aku serba salah and somehow, aku buat atas satu sebab je, untuk ko. Aku dah tengok banyak kali dlm semester baru your ups and downs. So aku harap tindakan aku kali ni, betul betul dapat bantu ko. Sorry aku terpaksa...

Well skrg dah minggu ke-7, so aku harap dia masih semangat untuk habiskan bukan sekadar dalam kata kata tapi dengan tindakan.  Please...

Wehhhh ngantuk pulak seh padahal banyak nak cerita..

Klah nite hahahahahaha

Macam tu je lah Senah

Situasinya macam ni lah.

Kita masing-masing faham apa kita nak tapi banyak benda yang masih tak pasti dan ianya menjadi penghalang buat masa sekarang.

Kita tak macam dulu tapi sekarang lebih yakin dan jelas apa yang kita nak cumanya tak leh obvious macam dulu. Biarlah batasan kita tetap dijaga sebab siapalah kita untuk tahu apa akan jadi nanti kan. Macam ko cakap, selagi takde ikatan yang sah..eloklah kita macam kawan.

Kita boleh start berusaha sekarang utk capai matlamat kita, iaitu, ko cepat habiskan study supaya boleh fikir apa yang seterusnya. Aku yakin, kalau betul, Allah akan mudahkan walau sekarang mungkin nampak impossible dan susah senarnya.

Aku masih kat sini, support ko k.

Aku pun rasa jugak berdosa bila selalu sangat fikir pasal ko, nak spend masa dengan ko, ajak ko ke sana sini. Umur makin bertambah, tapi attitude macam kita ni dah ada ikatan pape pulak. Tak elok, dan aku tau. Haih

Raya Aidilfitri yg tak Disangka

Semalam lupa nak cerita.

Raya aidilfitri haritu, aku invite few friends datang raya rumah. Yang lain kengkawan yang memang nak konvoi beraya.

Dia datang beraya dengan adik. Thanks sebab sudi mai raya. Niat aku just, mama abah suh jemput mai so jemputlah kan and secondly saja nak bagi dia kenal family aku. Semuanya okay sampailah abah start tanya soalan cepumas kat dia..adeh. Tapi bila fikir balik, sebabkan abah tanya dan cuba explain la aku rasa dia dah start faham dan terbukak sikit fikiran towards family dan expectation abah dan aku sendiri. Alhamdulillah sekurangnya dia dah tau apa perasaan aku yg latest ni.

Cuma, aku pun masih tak pasti future kami mcm mana. Even aku berharap tapi aku sedar aku berpijak kat dunia mana. Aku dah janji dengan diri sendiri, aku nak tolong dia support study dia sampai berjaya grad. Aku tau dia ada cabaran sendiri nak habiskan disebabkan faktor diri sendiri, kengkawan satu batch dah takdak, masih sibuk itu ini, kerja part-time dll. Aku takkan halang apa dia nak buat melainkan apa dia nak buat tu melebihi benda yang lebih prioriti. Aku doakan semuanya akan dipermudahkan, berapa bulan je lagi, then dia akan balik kampung dan....................herm..

Senarnya aku bukan fikir negatif, aku cuma nak berjaga-jaga dengan hati dan perasaan sendiri ni. Takut senarnya..

Tapi, aku tau aku kena usaha sekarang dan doa dan tawakkal..Allah tau selebihnya..

Intern friends and 3.0 again!

Salam Aidiladha!

Dah September pun..last post Jun lepas.

...............................malasnya nak taip tapi rasa cam banyak betul benda nak cerita. K lah, kalini kita try cara lain selain just karangan buta haha

Jun - Ogos. Depa dah habis intern, cukup 3 bulan dah senarnya. Sedih kot, 3 bulan ni memang lunch sekali, lepak, balik sesama. Dan sekarang, back to normal working life. Aku, kerja, boss, budak kerja dan lelain :"( Anyhow, a good memories, alhamdulillah.

Ogos. Alhamdulillah, result sem 3, tahun 1 dapat naik CGPA ke 3 pointer balik. Alhamdulillah..baru ingat nak give up kalau still fail, Allah bantu tunjukkan jalan. Alhamdulillah. Terimakasih abah, mama, sedara, kengkawan dan ko sebab tolong bagi support.

September. I realized and learnt seriously few things untuk financial planning and saving. Selain tu, berazam untuk join aktiviti outdoor (hiking dan jogging/workout sesikit) dan kurangkan berfikir pasai sorang tuuuuuu ja. Ingat, life is short, make full use of your life Fatin. Oh dan jugak, fokus study, buat assignment bersungguh jangan dok halai balai, tajdidkan niat, belajar sesuatu bukan semata master di tangan, gunakan ilmu tu. Kerja pun tak lupa, do your best. kerja kan ibadah. Hurmmm..

Fatin can do this. Go go!

K lah..ketemu lagi.

Dear you..

Dear you,

I am so happy you are doing well up to today. I can see your improvement in few things in your life from time to time. Especially from the time when you are so down and almost give up on your studies.

I wanted to tell you that to have you doing internship in the same company as where I'm working is the most happy feeling that I have. Do you know why? Because I can meet you almost everyday, I can have lunch with you, I can help you in few things, I can see your fatigue and happy faces after work, I can see your hardship and being discipline worker, I can see your effort to learn things and all is I can see you standing and smiling when we are about to disperse in front of the lift to go back our own office :)

I can feel I am so happy even though I know that there are possibilities that I cannot have you (I don't want to think thou). To be honest I am putting a very very very high hope on you for my future. But, only Allah knows what best for us. Hurmm.... I am so afraid to ask you again about us, I don't know when the time is suitable for us to talk, I am afraid that you are again rejecting me. I know I cannot push you, but I am everyday pray for the best and hope that Allah will guide my heart for the right things.

For time being, I wanted to be the only person that you will see whenever you feel happy and sad. I wanted to be your more than a best friend supposed to be. I wanted you to know that I cannot lose you unless I will lose my own self (okay, ni macam bunyi over haha but betul la kan huhu)

I am so afraid of what coming next.

But I know He has plans for us. The best one. Allahu..

Ok, good night :)

The problem is me

Salam 5 Ramadhan :)

Dah Jun 2015, how time flies. Currently tengah sem ketiga, nak completekan first year aku. Uuuu tak sangka, but sem ni sebenarnya kena struggle lebih sebab nak baiki pointer. Skrg cam 2.9+ and all I need is to make it 3 sebab minimum requirement for masters is 3. Please, doakan aku k. Cuak jugak sebab subjek semakin susah. Setiap kali ngadu kat mama, mesti mama cakap: "tu kan pilihan Fatin, jadi jangan mengeluh la..face it" hihi betul la tu :p

But the problem is aku ni:

1. Asyik tangguh kerja sampai last minit T_T

2. Buat kerja halai balai asal siap -__-

3. Tak buat revision dah study apa ja

So what do you expect to score? :[

Ok ok mulai saat lepas taip post ni, aku berubah inshaaAllah! 

Chaiyyokkkkkkk!

Home

I am home today after a while. 

Semalam berkesempatan mandi sungai and pagi nih berjaya tawan bukit Tabur. Alhamdulillah allah yg izinkan.

Aku azam cuti 2 minggu nih aku nak fokus kerja. Kerja berkualiti dan efisyen. Bukan guna tenaga lebih pikir lebih melampau sekali tak berguna. Must be smart. And bos cakap aku kena ubah perangai blur dan kena fokus. Hmm 

Satu lagi dok umah nih aku kalau boleh nak cuba sedaya upaya jauh kejap dari dia. Pause lah kejap biar dia fokus program dia dan all projects final sem nih. N aku taktau la decision aku sibuk dok kalut post gambaq kami dah kenapa. Gigih hmm but aku just suka heh😳

Ok lah..hopefully life would be more happier and meaningful after this. Fokus family fokus kerja fokus aktiviti😁 inshaaAllah akan bermakna dan diredhai Allah☺️